In the meantime, I’m taking a break from your B-12 peepee discussion.
Man, am I fucked up. I’ve started throwing away some of my meds to stay awake. I’ve been waiting to get to the point where I’m asleep most of the time and then pass away, but I’m not to that point yet. I shouldn’t be, anyway. Without the meds, I can actually speak in full sentences. When I’m on them, I can’t even stay awake to eat.
I don’t know how much of this will be repeated from earlier posts.
I talked them into moving my oxygen machine out of my room and into the hallway. The temp in my room has dropped at least 10°. My son dropped off my fridge today along with Ensure and Coke. I notified Hospice and let them know I was changing my meds and have a meeting scheduled for tomorrow with a doctor, nurse, and the administrator here. Again.
I heard a half-heated discussion earlier with my neighbor (who complained about someone else’s machine once) and a worker (who speaks very broken Engrish) and I guess the worker was on my side and won, because the machine is still in the hall.
The worker. LO fuckin L. I get this walker delivered yesterday and last night, my catheter bag was attached to it and was pretty damn full. When he was in here, I pointed at it and said “You may want to empty that”. His reply? “Rental”
Me: “The bag is full.”
Him: “Rental”
See what I’m dealing with here? The halibut I had for dinner had more brains than this idiot. Having him get me a vanilla Ensure out of my new fridge earlier was another paragraph, trust me. And these are the people trusted to handle my meds? The first night, I asked for a morphine pill and he returned with an empty syringe and a bottle of morphine. I should’ve just done one good dose and this place would be boarded up by now. LOL But, the food has been outstanding lately and I just got a new fridge.
So, this sleeping thing. I fell asleep last 13 minutes into a movie I was streaming. Crawled from the recliner to the bed. Woke at 3 am, which I’m programmed for. Fell asleep again. Woke at 7:30. Started eating breakfast and fell asleep AGAIN. Woke at 1:30 and called the administrator. She gave me ice packs for my headache and said this was normal. I disagree, because I’ve seen two parents go through pretty much the same thing, and I’m not “there” yet. Soon, but not yet.
I’ll know more tomorrow after this meeting. I hope. Thanks for reading.
TL/DR? Too bad, go back to the top you lazy fucker.