So since I didnt want my depression leaking out into other threads like it just did I am making a BeeRad is pissed off at the world thread. Do not read this unless you want to add in some shitty things that happened this year.
For everything that is good this year it seems that I have just been beat to shit with bad things. Whether it be anywhere from tire blowouts all the way up to the loss of countless friends my year has just been horrible. As it comes to a close I found out Friday night that my grandfather was in worse shape than we had thought. I stayed home Friday night because I was to depressed to leave the house and didnt want to bring others down. Saturday I was feeling a little better so I went out and had a wonderful night with some close friends, it helped tremendously. Sunday I head over to my parents house to see how my mother is holding up and give my support/take some too. We then find out that he only has about 2 days to live and my moms flight tomorrow might be to late, pray that she can at least say goodbye.
So this has been pretty much the norm for my 2006. In January I lost my best friend in a car accident leaving my other close friend paralyzed. In Feb. I lost another friend (23 years old) who died in his sleep from a brain anurism(sp). March my good friend Mark is mad at his SO and is racing home while she follows behind in her car, hits a tree, dies while she is trying to open the crumpled door to his car. About 3 more old friends pass throughout the year but I couldnt take anymore funerals so I just stopped going.
All year I have been fighting a financial battle and cannot seem to get my head above water with any of my bills. As I am finding out about my grandpa last night I am opening a letter from my bank saying they are repo'ing my car tomorrow. I am only 10 days late on payments (after I make one today) but they dont care because this isnt the first time. So tomorrow it looks as if I will be car-less which sucks even more. Even if they give me time I wont be able to pay because I will be in Canada for my papa's funeral.
Alright I am done bitching about this shit year and just want it to be over with. I posted this because I dont have many people I can talk to about this stuff and just needed to say it. I am not looking for a woah is me or any pity because life does this shit. Just wanted to let off some steam and get some things out that I normally cant talk about.
Good things - Shamy wedding, Doms wedding, John and Lynets wedding, Dave getting home from Afghan, being alive.
For everything that is good this year it seems that I have just been beat to shit with bad things. Whether it be anywhere from tire blowouts all the way up to the loss of countless friends my year has just been horrible. As it comes to a close I found out Friday night that my grandfather was in worse shape than we had thought. I stayed home Friday night because I was to depressed to leave the house and didnt want to bring others down. Saturday I was feeling a little better so I went out and had a wonderful night with some close friends, it helped tremendously. Sunday I head over to my parents house to see how my mother is holding up and give my support/take some too. We then find out that he only has about 2 days to live and my moms flight tomorrow might be to late, pray that she can at least say goodbye.
So this has been pretty much the norm for my 2006. In January I lost my best friend in a car accident leaving my other close friend paralyzed. In Feb. I lost another friend (23 years old) who died in his sleep from a brain anurism(sp). March my good friend Mark is mad at his SO and is racing home while she follows behind in her car, hits a tree, dies while she is trying to open the crumpled door to his car. About 3 more old friends pass throughout the year but I couldnt take anymore funerals so I just stopped going.
All year I have been fighting a financial battle and cannot seem to get my head above water with any of my bills. As I am finding out about my grandpa last night I am opening a letter from my bank saying they are repo'ing my car tomorrow. I am only 10 days late on payments (after I make one today) but they dont care because this isnt the first time. So tomorrow it looks as if I will be car-less which sucks even more. Even if they give me time I wont be able to pay because I will be in Canada for my papa's funeral.
Alright I am done bitching about this shit year and just want it to be over with. I posted this because I dont have many people I can talk to about this stuff and just needed to say it. I am not looking for a woah is me or any pity because life does this shit. Just wanted to let off some steam and get some things out that I normally cant talk about.
Good things - Shamy wedding, Doms wedding, John and Lynets wedding, Dave getting home from Afghan, being alive.