the problem is, there's nothing to be done at this point. someone HAS to do the stuff while I'm out, & I may leave any moment (though it feels like I'll be carrying this kid forever now). he's... theoretically better than not having someone do it right now, provided he doesn't fuck up TOO bad while I'm out (& I have no way of foreseeing that). there's nobody else here that can advise or help or guide while I'm gone bc I'm Thee Dude™ who knows this stuff & literally wrote the book on it (that he doesn't use) but there's no way to account for every possibility as every record is a bit different.
& then there's the stress that he might just decide he can't come in at all anymore bc school, which would suck bc I wasted a lot of my time training him when I could have been getting my own shit done and/or training someone who wasn't going to bail