i don't think she was the brightest thing, and i don't applaud many of her techniques, but i think it takes balls to go against everything and everyone and do what you feel like you need to do. she made a name for herself and made money doing it, and i think it takes a certain amount of courage (no matter how i might disagree with her decisions) to do so. i won't go as far as to say i admire her, but i do wonder how she felt, all alone at night with nothing but her thoughts, knowing the people who were closest to her didn't support her choices. how lonely but determined she must've been. i can't imagine.