The tone of your posts made it sound as though you were not only not trying but were unwilling to try.You're assuming I'm not trying. I didn't count on people actively trying to thwart my attempts to help them and then bleeding me dry while playing duplicitous games with everyone I know. When you are the subject of active sabotage that any retaliation for can actually cost you you everything. My one brother knows all he has to do is call the cops and get me detained to completely fuck over everything I've ever worked for. He's done it, several times, for me it's like playing russian roulette, if a trooper whos having a bad day shows up and puts me in cuffs because some brat lied I wont work again.
It sounds like they have you in a really tight spot. I'm curious to know why but obviously you left out specifics for a reason.
If it was me I'd walk away forever, I would not be able to live under constant threat like that. Sucks.