i think i have figured out that i am very visual...meaning i have to see it in front of me for it to register. stupid and juvenile, yes, but i have to start taking hard looks in front of the mirror, and this is what i've found. the problem for me is nickel and diming it, and also swiping is the same motion whether it's a dollar or a hundred dollars. it's all the same, and it all comes from some magical place that i never see. so it doesn't work for me.
so now i'm wondering if i need to do old-fashioned envelope systems or what. once i find a system that works for me, i use it. but it has to work, and i have to see and feel something, i think. the quicken might be ok so long as i can print and write. it's all the same on screen, you know? i don't do technology well i don't think.
ugh i'm sick and now i've exposed my underbelly to you but hey. we all have vunerabilities, right?